I Just Dont Want To Live

I just don’t wanna live
This world is cruel and fake
All that people do is destroy and break
Money, wealth and fame
Rest all is a game
They hurt and watch you cry
They speak nothing but lie
At a grave they stand and shed crocodile tears
And this is what they are for many years
They have no love to give
And I just don’t wanna live

Daphne Pamela Mascreen

Never Meant to be

“We”-meant to be? Hell No.

I wish I could kill you all in a row

Not once you’ve been fair

And now I just don’t care

You’ve always been right and me wrong – that’s what you think

Your attitudes’ nothing but a stink

You’ve all stuck together, left me apart

And simply tore my heart

You betrayed and wounded me

Some day you will see.

When would you all stop pretending?

Remember judgment for everyone is impending

The scars of my childhood still remain

All I went through was nothing but pain

I remember the nights when I woke up with a scream

You were never there not even in my dream

Hell with you all

Because of you I only did fall

I need no one

Coz it’s all said and done.

Daphne Pamela Mascreen

A letter to Mom

Dear Mom, I am writing to you with tears
Thought you’d cover me from all my fears
I feared to come out of you
I feared how the world outside would be
Thought you’d still protect me
Wrapped up in darkness
I longed to see the sunlight.
I wanted to see the colorful butterflies
And the flowers bloom
Sadly I died in your womb.

My death wasn’t an accident
Mom, it was you who killed me
Why mom, why me?
I wonder what the reason could be
Didn’t you hear my silent plea?
I had dreams of being in your arm
Mom I did no harm.
Wasn’t I worth it?
You never liked me? Not even a bit?
Please don’t do this again
Oh Mom this is so much pain.

Will you tell my brother about me?
Or would you simply hide?
It hurts that you could never get to be by my side.
Will you ever think of me?
May be you will
When life comes to a “stand still”.
I hope you don’t forget me.
Remember from heaven will I see.


With love
Your unborn child.

- Daphne Pamela Mascreen-

Love Never Lost

Never knew who you are
And where you came from
A flash of destiny
A thought that you were born for me
Are you my Adam?
And am I your missing rib?
I wasn’t vague with what I felt
It was you who made my heart melt.

Every time you smiled you swept me off my feet
Honey, there could be no one else who’s as sweet.
I could smell your perfume, sense your touch
I could feel you right beside
Even if it all had to be a dream.
Life is so beautiful! To me it seem.
The day I spoke to you,
Oh my joy knew no bound
I was flying off ground.

I don’t think there has ever been a night
As that night I went to bed
Thinking of all what you had said.
I felt so happy and so complete
I waited desperately for dawn so we’d meet.
But soon you left to a distant land
I was sad, and wondered of when I’d ever hold your hand.

The times you made me wait to hear from you
My anxiety only grew
When you finally wrote
I felt a lump in my throat
You tore my heart into a million pieces
Wounded it beyond repair
Darling! That was too much for me to bear.

You said you never wanted to hear from me
Guess what? In my heart you’ll always be
If you didn’t know,
I still love you and I will always do
No matter what people say
In my heart you’ll forever stay.
- Daphne Pamela Mascreen

I simply Love you

I ran into you this morning
And I see the most captivating smile ever
I shook hands with you almost with a shiver
You stole the key to my heart
And now I never wanna part.
How do I tell you all what I feel within?
I know for sure that it’s no sin.

We haven’t spoken much,
But you know what? I’ve never felt as such.
Do you have a magical wand?
Coz with you I see life and beyond.
How I long to tell you how much I love you
And that you mean the world to me.
I fear a frown
Just because someone who meant to you let you down.

Listen to my heart!
I aint promising you sunshine everyday
Nor rainbow after every rain
I am promising you a love so true.
A soothing touch when you are in pain.
When you are blue
Please remember I will always love you
No matter what No matter where
In my heart you’ll always be there.

- Daphne Pamela Mascreen-

Would You Love me at all, Dad?

I bloomed into a flower
Hoping to see sunshine someday
But you came as a wind that blew me away
Leaving no trace
When will I ever have a loving embrace?

There were times I longed to hold your hand
But you treated me as if I was from a distant land
Words you spoke broke no bone of mine
But it did break this little heart
And I was barely nine.

You hit, abused and yelled
I stood right there with tears welled
There were so many who rose up against me
I thought you’d defend
Sadly you didn’t even pretend.

Years have gone by
All I did was simply cry
Nothing can be undone
I can no longer run
Someday I hope you'll realize, to you I belong
But it’ll be too late and I’ll be gone.

-Daphne Pamela Mascreen-

His Unconditional Love

It was the darkest hour
Suffocated with loneliness and grief
How do I explain all what I went through, in brief?
I longed for someone to lean on
But God said “darling, hold on”.
The hardest of times, are times when I had to wait
Failed to realize He was/ is never late.
And God said “I am perfect with timing
So please stop whining”.

So many who came by calling it Love
Into my little heart, a knife they shove.
Friends had betrayed and feelings they hurt
I felt shattered, worn out & hopeless
God with a hug said “I never loved you any less”
The Search was still on,
A search for love, joy and a song
And God said “My adorable one, I am right here and to Me you belong”.

-Daphne Pamela Mascreen-

Love is Gone

I saw him with a smile on his face
I ran behind him but couldn't keep it to his pace
I loved him first and confessed
He loved me too and was impressed
The sun shone brighter, flowers and butterflies around
Every time he uttered I love you he swept me off ground
With him I felt summer, winter and spring
Oh yes, we did exchange rings

The rides on the bike
Times he had to drop me back home and insisted for a good bye kiss
Our walks on the beach
Oh my joy, way too high no one could ever reach
Our warm cozy nights
Endless talks on phone all night
Times we patched up with a hug after each fight.....

Then came a time he had to leave to a distant land
Was hard for me to let go off his hand
Tears welled up and felt heavy at heart
Love knows not its depth until the moment you part
Yet I bid him goodbye
Hoping we’d be together again
But all I felt was nothing but pain

Months passed by and a year rolled out too
Our talks lessened and insecurities grew
Neither of us had the slightest clue
That its heading towards the end

Now, there was no more Sunshine or Butterflies around
I was shattered and could no longer stand on ground
All I heard now was just harsh and bitter words
Worse than swords!

The love we had, died
Although we tried
Memories have become nightmares
And Life has become death
As I think of him with every single breath.

-Daphne Pamela Mascreen-