Life's much more...

Baby I was so delusional thinking you’d be mine forever

Thank you for making realize,

Though I fell, I will rise.

Coz’ life’s much more…

Much more than those tears, wasted on you.

Not a second passed by without thinking of you

Can you imagine? I still do,

How stupid could I be for losing the real “me”.

Coz’ Life’s much more…

Much more than what we see.

Baby, it’s different now,

Someday, it would have ended anyhow

I know I can’t go on, with all the lies and all the love gone

Coz’ Life’s much more…

Much more than what you’ve done.

So, here I am starting my life brand new

Peaceful & happy I will be, and you’ll have no clue

Damn! I already am

Coz’ Baby Life’s much more.

-        Daphne Pamela Mascreen

More than a conqueror

Dear God, I can’t imagine how I came this far
A loving father & a dear friend you are
You’ve always been my hope when I was down
You took away my shame & gave me a crown
Whenever I was left all alone
You were right there, I should’ve known.

There were times I abandoned you,
Yet, you adored me with a love so true.
When my faith went down the drain
You probably cried those tears with pain
I have always wished that I could undo my past
I failed to realize that you’re there to wipe it out
& to you my burdens, I could cast.

When things went wrong & hope was gone
You gave me strength asked me to hold on.
When I asked you for a reason
You said for everything there is a season.
I surrendered but I asked you to hurry
You said, dear one be still, I am God so there’s nothing to worry.

Now when I look back, I know I am more than a conqueror
For God is my warrior
He fights my life’s battle
He reminds me that I am a special one in his cattle
He comforts & guides, He loves & adores,
He makes a way and opens shut doors.
I don’t have to worry about my needs
As I now know, He leads.

A letter to my Maker

Father I am feeling so down, so low
Wondering where to go
I know you are there,
No matter what when and where
Friends have come n gone
But you’ve always kept me strong
People have hurt n wounded me
It was then I realized in your arms I’d rather be.

I wasted half my life waiting for someone to come by
And to show me love that’s unconditional
How could I be so stupid and unreasonable?
There were times I felt deserted
On your promises I rested
Even though at times I have been unfaithful & ran away from your love
With a sad face and anticipation
You watched over me from above.

I am sorry for times I made you sad
There was this guilt in me that made me feel bad
I failed to realize that relationships we build may never last
Pain and agony was all that was there in the past
All though I did things that hurt you
You have given me a life, brand new
When everything fell apart
It was you who kept me close to your heart.

I Just Dont Want To Live

I just don’t wanna live
This world is cruel and fake
All that people do is destroy and break
Money, wealth and fame
Rest all is a game
They hurt and watch you cry
They speak nothing but lie
At a grave they stand and shed crocodile tears
And this is what they are for many years
They have no love to give
And I just don’t wanna live

Daphne Pamela Mascreen

Never Meant to be

“We”-meant to be? Hell No.

I wish I could kill you all in a row

Not once you’ve been fair

And now I just don’t care

You’ve always been right and me wrong – that’s what you think

Your attitudes’ nothing but a stink

You’ve all stuck together, left me apart

And simply tore my heart

You betrayed and wounded me

Some day you will see.

When would you all stop pretending?

Remember judgment for everyone is impending

The scars of my childhood still remain

All I went through was nothing but pain

I remember the nights when I woke up with a scream

You were never there not even in my dream

Hell with you all

Because of you I only did fall

I need no one

Coz it’s all said and done.

Daphne Pamela Mascreen

A letter to Mom

Dear Mom, I am writing to you with tears
Thought you’d cover me from all my fears
I feared to come out of you
I feared how the world outside would be
Thought you’d still protect me
Wrapped up in darkness
I longed to see the sunlight.
I wanted to see the colorful butterflies
And the flowers bloom
Sadly I died in your womb.

My death wasn’t an accident
Mom, it was you who killed me
Why mom, why me?
I wonder what the reason could be
Didn’t you hear my silent plea?
I had dreams of being in your arm
Mom I did no harm.
Wasn’t I worth it?
You never liked me? Not even a bit?
Please don’t do this again
Oh Mom this is so much pain.

Will you tell my brother about me?
Or would you simply hide?
It hurts that you could never get to be by my side.
Will you ever think of me?
May be you will
When life comes to a “stand still”.
I hope you don’t forget me.
Remember from heaven will I see.


With love
Your unborn child.

- Daphne Pamela Mascreen-

Love Never Lost

Never knew who you are
And where you came from
A flash of destiny
A thought that you were born for me
Are you my Adam?
And am I your missing rib?
I wasn’t vague with what I felt
It was you who made my heart melt.

Every time you smiled you swept me off my feet
Honey, there could be no one else who’s as sweet.
I could smell your perfume, sense your touch
I could feel you right beside
Even if it all had to be a dream.
Life is so beautiful! To me it seem.
The day I spoke to you,
Oh my joy knew no bound
I was flying off ground.

I don’t think there has ever been a night
As that night I went to bed
Thinking of all what you had said.
I felt so happy and so complete
I waited desperately for dawn so we’d meet.
But soon you left to a distant land
I was sad, and wondered of when I’d ever hold your hand.

The times you made me wait to hear from you
My anxiety only grew
When you finally wrote
I felt a lump in my throat
You tore my heart into a million pieces
Wounded it beyond repair
Darling! That was too much for me to bear.

You said you never wanted to hear from me
Guess what? In my heart you’ll always be
If you didn’t know,
I still love you and I will always do
No matter what people say
In my heart you’ll forever stay.
- Daphne Pamela Mascreen